*SIGH* RAIN, RAIN, AND MORE RAIN.

The top half of the North Island (New Zealand, me home) is getting battered by rain ... yesterday and today.
Yaaaa, like we need any more rain!
This has been the wettest 'summer' in decades.

ABOVE: our lovely weatherman, Jim Hickey... pointing out the obvious!  We gunna get rain... lots of rain.  The very top of the North Island got flooded yesterday... wonder if we will today?  Well... WE won't get flooded cos we up a hill eh!


Talking of today:  might just go out... we need more spa pool chemicals, and I want to post a Birthday Card to a grandkid.  Not sure what else I will get up to today... I do intend to do me exercise at some point too.


ONWARD...


Been out and about.... got the pool chemicals, did some shopping, came home and had lunch, then Steve arrived home feeling ill.


So, it's a quiet day.  The rain has stopped... so hopefully it is fine for a few days now.


Got a phone call from me Dr, she just wants me to work on me diet/exercise for the next 3 months, then have another diabetes test.  IF it comes back high again, then we will sit down and discuss options apparently.
Cool.


Feeling blah.  Bored shitless.  But don't want to do anything about it.  *sigh*


I got on the scales... thought I should.  Showed a GAIN of 2 kilos.  Yaaaa, that just makes me feel more pissed off.


I just hit 'Delete All Readers' on me blog.  Just feeling so crabby, don't want to bring anyone else down.
I'm a dismal failure at the diet.
And it affects me badly EVERY DAY.... and makes me hate myself.
When I feel like that, I just want to curl up in a ball and just be alone.
Knowing hundreds of people read my blog sometimes freaks me out.
so, just for a little while today, I want to feel alone.


It's a bit like saying "I'm not home" ?


WHOOPS!  didn't last long.  Started to get emails from readers wondering what was happening?  Sorry, just ignore me, just having a hissy fit.


LYNDA: poor choice of words on my part.  You go to Settings and choose who can read your blog.  I just chose 'Author' for a little while!


I have come to the conclusion that I am completely and UTTERLY sick to death of everything I eat.  It's all boring.  No new tastes.
So.... I'm going to haul out some recipe books and try and make our food more interesting, a bit different?  Just want to enjoy eating ... not feel like it's such a drag.


End of Day:  just had a lovely spa with Stew and Griffin.  Well... as lovely as it can be with a friggin 10 year old jumping around!  Ants in his pants that boy!
Someone saw Griffin at Stew's work the other day and said "Wow, doesn't he look like you?" to  Stew.  *snigger*  Clearly she didn't know he is Stew's Grandson... and there is no biological link either!  Stew didn't bother to correct her.  It does make us smile though... cos he is our son in every way the matters.
ON TRACK: nope.  Blew it today.
nite nite.